In late spring of 2018 my son, Thomas, was obsessed with Parkour. If you aren’t familiar with Parkour, I’ll give you a quick lesson. It’s a training discipline originally adopted from military obstacle course training. The aim is to get from one point to another in a complex environment, in the fastest most efficient way possible. Parkour is a great fit for my boy because it allows him to observe his environment in a new way. He has to imagine the potential for navigating his environment through movement around, across, through, over and under what is in front of him. It also promotes quick thinking while making less mistakes, and who can’t benefit from that? He was at the end of a very difficult 7th grade school year. He had faced quite a few obstacles and had difficulty finding a way around them. Parkour was an outlet that allowed him to stay physically fit and use his brain to problem solve and look for quick alternatives to obstances.
Thomas’s Parkour team had decided to gather in Washington DC one Saturday in May of 2018 for a national parkour event. It was being held at Gateway Park in the Rosslyn area of Washington D.C. Thomas begged me to take him so I bought tickets and cleared my schedule. I decided we would drive into Northern Virginia and take the Metro into the city.
It was a warm day so we dressed accordingly, packed a backpack of snacks and water and headed up 95 North to our nation’s capital. We decided to take the Metro from Franconia Springfield into Rosslyn. I parked my car in the parking garage, bought the tickets and waited for the next train. Thomas was excited and could not wait to see some of the nations best parkour athletes show off their skills.
Eventually, our train arrived and we quickly boarded and found our seats that just happened to be facing backward. Let me preface by saying that I have a propensity for motion sickness…very bad motion sickness. I quickly realized that I had made a mistake, I had forgotten to take my dramamine. The second mistake I made was that we were sitting backward. For anyone who suffers from motion sickness, facing backward in a moving vehicle can enhance the motion sickness. Before I could take action, the train took off and I immediately felt the first wave of dizziness. I quickly gathered our things, tugged Thomas gently by the arm and explained that we needed to find forward facing seats. He complied and followed me as we moved down the aisle. I settled into our new seats and felt the first pang of nausea. Dammit. I thought to myself. How could I have made such a stupid mistake?
My mommy brain went into overdrive, furiously searching for my options and problem solving. Glancing at the Metro map on the wall of the train cart, I could see that we had about 10 more stops until we arrived at Rosslyn station. Fearing the nausea would worsen, I quickly tried to calculate the time in my head and that was when I made mistake number three. I looked down at my phone to see what time it was. When you suffer from motion sickness a sure fire way to make it worse is to look down and read something. Idiot. Heat rushed over my cheeks. Worried that I might vomit, I became anxious and knew that I needed to take action. Thomas sat to my left looking out the window, oblivious to my struggle. It’s no secret that my boy struggles with anxiety. I didn’t want him to worry about me because I know that worry can bring on a full blown anxiety attack. I did my best to keep my misery to myself. I can do this!
One of the coping strategies that Thomas has found to be most effective during an anxiety attack is the 5-4-3-2-1 Method that takes one through the five senses in order to remind you of the present rather than focusing on what is making you anxious. I decided to try this method to see if it would help to lessen the nausea, dizziness and anxiety.
What are five things I can see? The bright red exit sign above the door, Thomas’s fidgety hands, my back pack in my lap, the fitbit on my wrist, the map of metro stops on the wall.
What are four things I can hear? Two women speaking in Spanish, the couple next to me discussing an upcoming visit with her family, the screeching of the rails as the metro rounded a curve, my own racing heart beat as my quickened pulse pounded inside my head.
What are three things I can smell? The body odor of the sweating man sitting in front of me, the sickly sweet smell of someone’s baby powder scented deodorant, the sun screen I applied earlier that morning.
What are two things I can touch? My cell phone, the back of seat in front of me as I push against it to make the spinning stop.
What is one thing I can taste? A metallic flavor in my dry mouth as I reach for my water bottle to take a swig.
The grounding exercise didn’t work. The nausea was peaking and I was sweating profusely. I could feel the drops of perspiration running down the middle of my back and my scalp was soaked. Why is it so freaking hot on this dang train? I thought to myself. I caught Thomas glancing my way, his eyes narrowed as he attempted to process what he saw in front of him. His mother was pale, sweating and swaying from dizziness.
I tried to focus on my breathing, inhaling through my nose and out through my mouth. Unfortunately, my breaths were shallow and it started to feel as though someone were sitting on my chest and my lungs could not expand. I started to feel light-headed. Thinking through my options, my thoughts began to race.
We can get off the metro a few stops early, rest and then get back on when I feel better. Damn, it’s hot in here! Thomas will be so disappointed if we miss this event. I think I’m going to throw up. Damn it’s hot in here! I need to figure this out. My armpits are soaked. He’s been working so hard at Parkour. Damn it’s hot in here! I could call Mark but what help will he back in Richmond? Why the hell do people have to wear baby powder scented deodorant? Damn it’s hot in here! Oh crap, I feel sick.
I looked down and saw that my hands had begun to cramp, forming a shape that resembled a lobster claw. Realizing that I was seconds from passing out, I leaned over to Thomas and opened my mouth to give him instructions. My mouth was so dry that my tongue and lips had trouble forming the shapes to make the words. He felt me lean into him so he turned to face me, a look of panic in his beautiful hazel eyes.
“Buddy I’m not feeling well.” I mumbled.
“Mom, what’s wrong?” he whispered, his voice on the edge of panic.
“I need you to tell the adults around us that I need help.” I mustered the strength to hand him my cell phone, “Take this.” I said as he wrapped his sweaty fingers around the phone.
“What’s wrong” his panic rising. I felt my own panic rising to my throat as I began to think about what would happen to Thomas if I passed out in the middle of a DC Metro train. Would he know what to do? Would anyone help him? My hands continued to curl into lobster claws and my arms contracted toward my torso. My feet were numb and my legs were tingling.
“I will be fine but, I think I am going to pass out. I need you to be brave and stand up now.” I said as my vision blurred and I struggled to keep my eyes open.
Slowly and tentatively, Thomas rose from his seat and said “My mom needs help.” His voice was barely audible above the pounding in my ears.
I began to hear the conversations around me pause as a few heads turn our way, unsure if they heard what they think they heard from my scared 12 year old son. My eyes began to flutter and everything was spinning. My mouth was numb and my lips felt as though they were sliding down my chin. I was quickly losing the ability to form words so I mustered every bit of strength I could and leaned toward my son one more time.
“Buddy,” I murmured, “Say it louder. Do it NOW!” I attempted to use that voice us mamas use when we mean business but it came out in a winded squeak. My head loomed forward and bumped into the seat in front of me as the muscles in my neck went numb and I lost the ability to hold up my head on my own.
He stood taller in the seat and boldly proclaimed to everyone around us, “Somebody help. My mom is sick.” his voice was shaking as he tried to hold back the tears that welled up in his eyes.
As I slipped in and out of consciousness, I was aware of a sudden flutter of activity around me. I was having trouble keeping my eyes open. In between the eyelid flutters, I could make out at least 3 to 4 people standing in the aisle of the train, talking quickly to one another. One woman tried to help me sip from my water bottle but my lips and face were numb and the water ended up pouring down my chin and soaking my shirt. My hands continued to draw into tight lobster claws, my wrists twisting as my forearms strained against a muscle spasm. I could feel my toes drawing into a cramp as my feet labored against the constraints of my sneakers. My head spun, the nausea was horrible and I was soaked head to toe like I had just run a marathon. Even though my body was beginning to lose basic functions, my brain was still very aware of what was happening. I found myself somewhat curious about what was happening, no longer panicked but rather observant about what was happening to my body. It was surreal.
To my right, I caught a glimpse of someone squatting next to me in the aisle. It was a man, and he reached for my shoulders and turned me slowly so that I was looking him straight in the eye. As I struggled to focus on his face, I saw a beautiful pair of amber colored eyes and the longest dark eyelashes I had ever seen. He smiled a bright white smile and I thought to myself Dang, this guy is hot!
“My name is Nassir. I’m an Emergency Room Physician and I can help you. What is your name?” he asked as he reached for my wrist with his warm soft hands to check my pulse.
It took me a couple of seconds to respond because one, my face felt like it was slipping off of my skull and two, Nassir was so gorgeous and I felt a little self conscious that this handsome middle eastern prince of a man was inches from my sweaty pale face.
He’s so cute. My face is hot. I must be blushing. Actually it is probably because it is so damn hot on this train! Wait, did Nassir say he was an Emergency Room Physician? He’s a doctor and he’s hot!
Eventually, I managed to mumble some answers to his questions, giving my name, age and where I am from. I mentioned that my son was with me and Nassir assured that Thomas was by my side and he was fine. I could hear the adults around me, talking to my boy, peppering him with questions that might help Nassir in his assessment of what was happening to me.
Everytime a new body part would go numb or stop working effectively, I would think to myself, that’s weird. I could hear one of the adults instruct Thomas to use my cell phone to call 911. He put the phone on speaker mode so that the other adults could help coach him during the call.
Nassir asked if I was taking any medications and from behind me Thomas said, “She doesn’t take any. She’s 46 years old and healthy.” I was suddenly very proud of my boy but I didn’t have the strength or ability to tell him.
A pretty blond in her early 20s moved into my field of vision, getting within inches of my face to ensure I could see her clearly. “Hi there, I’m Abby. I have Thomas with me. We have your wallet and your backpack and he is on the phone with your husband right now.”
“Thank you.” The words uttered from my dry mouth.
She smiled, “I’ll stay with him and make sure he gets on the ambulance with you.”
“Nickie, can you straighten your hands and arms? ” Nassir asked me. I shook my head.
He reached for my hands and attempted to straighten my fingers. As soon as he let my hands go, they curled in on themselves once again, twisting from the painful muscle spasms.
Gently touching my shoulders and supporting me, Nassir said “Nickie, look at me for a second. Can you raise your arms out to your side?” I tried unsuccessfully and immediately I became aware that Nassir was assessing me for a stroke. Tears welled up in my eyes and I shook my head.
“Can you open your mouth?” he asked. Slowly, I opened my mouth and stuck out my tongue. Success!
“Puff out your cheeks and raise both eyebrows.” He instructed me and with great effort I did as he asked.
The Metro stopped moving and as the doors opened I breathed in the fresh air. Damn, it’s hot in here! A Metro tech, came aboard and began asking questions. She indicated that an ambulance had arrived and the Metro had halted to allow me to exit the train. I suddenly felt a tad guilty about the snowball effect my health crisis would have on the DC Metro system’s schedule.
“Nickie, can you walk off the train?” Nassir asked. I shook my head no and told him that my legs and feet were numb. Without hesitation, the gorgeous middle eastern prince scooped me off of my feet, all five feet nine inches and 150 pounds, and carried me off the Metro to a bench where the EMTs were waiting. Thomas continued to remain on speaker phone with Mark, while intermittently answering the questions of the EMTs on site. He was so grown up and articulate and knew way more about my medical history than I thought he did. Because I continued to have trouble speaking and was in and out of consciousness, Thomas answered most of the questions from the EMT.
“Does your mom have any allergies?” one EMT asked.
“She’s allergic to cats. They make her sneeze” I chuckled inside and then worried that the EMTs would laugh at my boy for not fully understanding that the question referred to medications and other health and safety related allergies.
“Got it.” said the EMT with a gentle smile. “We will take note of that. Do you know if she has allergies to any medications?” he clarified. I wanted to kiss that EMT for being so kind to my boy. Because Mark was still on speaker phone, he was able to fill in the details as needed.
At this point the nausea and dizziness was overwhelming. I vocalized the best I could that I might throw up. Nassir gave the EMTs his medical assessment and I listened as he described ruling out a stroke. Thank god! I took a mental note of his medical assessment and filed it away in my brain just before blacking out once again. I woke briefly and was aware that I was being wheeled out of the Metro station.
“Where is Thomas?” I managed to ask.
From somewhere behind me I hear, “He’s with me, we are following you to the ambulance. ” said Abby. That woman is an angel.
The EMTs pushed the gurney onto an elevator but there was no room for Thomas. I started to turn my head, searching for my boy when I heard Abby say “Thomas come with me. We will use the stairs to meet up with your mom.” feeling relieved, I blacked out again. I woke once more when the sunshine hit my face as we exited the station headed for the ambulance. I squeezed my eyes shut because… Dang, it’s bright out here!
As we approached the ambulance, I saw Nassir standing and talking with a metro worker and another EMT. He was spouting off medical terminology and giving the EMTs his medical assessment. I mustered enough strength to lift my head and say his name.
“Nassir,” he looked toward me “Thank you so much.”
He smiled, bowed his head slightly and said “Best of luck”.
As they put me inside the ambulance I heard Abby talking to another EMT who suggested that Thomas sit up front with the driver.
“Abby,” I said and she looked toward me “Thank you for helping.”
“You’re welcome. Bye Thomas.” she said waving and joined Nassir and one of the EMTs.
The doors on the ambulance closed and I could hear the EMT driver chatting with my boy. I strained to listen and I could tell from the tone of Thomas’s voice that he was feeling calmer and more relieved now that we were on the way to the hospital. I heard the driver mumble something and then he and Thomas both giggled. I smiled inside, because my mouth was still numb, and then I blacked out again. I woke suddenly when an EMT inserted an IV. Ouch that hurts. She put an oxygen mask over my face.
Ewww this smells weird.
“That’s because the mask is plastic.” she said. Oops, I must have said that outloud. I thought it was in my head but I was beginning to feel loopy from whatever medication they had given me to alleviate the muscle spasms. I cannot be responsible for anything weird I might say or do.
“Just keep breathing.” she instructed and I blacked out once again.
I didn’t wake up until I was in the ER. in a hospital bed, my arms and legs still drawn tight to my chest from muscle spasms. I was aware of two people in the room, most likely a nurse and an ER physician. Their hands moved over me from time to time, attempting to manipulate my limbs into positions that allowed for a better exam. They asked a few questions and even though I could hear them, I was unable to answer. Hum, this is so weird.
“Mrs. Brandenburger, any chance you are pregnant?” the physician asked. This question made me giggle a little inside.
Nope, shops closed.
The physician and the nurse both laughed. Oops I must have said that out loud too.
“My dad had a vasectomy.” Thomas chimed in from behind the doctor. How the heck does Thomas know that?
After more poking and prodding, the physician and nurse left Thomas and I alone in the room. I could hear him on the phone with someone but it was not my husband. As I listened closely to the conversation I realized who it was. Thomas had facetimed my big brother, Greg, because he was scared and needed emotional support from his favorite uncle. Greg listened intently and gently encouraged Thomas, commending him for his bravery and maturity. Again, I smiled inside because my face still felt like it was slipping off of my skull. I’m so proud of you buddy. I blacked out once again.
I woke again once Mark arrived. Later, I would find out just how much of a rock star my son was that day. Not only did he bravely stand up and ask strangers to help his mom, he called 911, communicated directly with the EMTs, remained level headed, stayed with me for two hours in the ER and gave Mark the necessary information needed in order to find our car in the parking garage. He did all of this on his own with only a little intervention from the adults around him. My husband was able to arrange for a friend to drive him and Leah from Richmond to DC, hunt down the correct Metro parking garage in which I had parked my car, send Leah with our friend back to Richmond, drive my car to the hospital, load my floppy drugged body into said car and drive home.
After a long nap, the drugs started to wear off and my muscle spasms subsided. Apparently, the extreme motion sickness had triggered an anxiety attack, which triggered hyperventilation which triggered something called respiratory alkalosis. Bottom line, it was just a freak incident with no long term complications, just a really good story to tell. Even though my boy missed his beloved parkour event that day in Washington DC, he gain something better, courage. Much like the concept of Parkour, Thomas was able to navigate a very difficult situation, rising to the challenge, problem solving and looking for alternatives to the obstacle. I’m thankful for the life lesson he received that day and I’m very grateful to Abby, the EMTs, the Metro workers, the ER doctors and nurses and to my middle eastern prince, Nassir. There are still nice people in this world, people that will rise to the occasion to help strangers. I’m so thankful that my boy had the opportunity to experience such kindness from strangers. I can only hope that one day he will pay it forward when he sees someone in need.
For more information on Parkour, see this link
For more information about the 5-4-3-2-1 Grounding exercise see this link